Defeated self pity finally brings me back to me
Young man why always head first and open heartedly
The choices you are making to your soul will one day be deadly
Neglected childhood and unguided youth
Unthinkable trials of life that he has walked in ragged shoes
Destruction masterminded his violent choices
He didn’t have a say… innocence muffled the voices
Silent screams were drowned by amplified lies that he lived
He lost himself long before he even thought about looking for me
Depression set in like a plague killing and raping every inch of his happiness
All aboard!!!! I got a first class ticket on the self destruction express
He surrendered before ever attempting to fight
Unheard sobs in his bedroom alone during the cold lonely night
I’ve never learnt life’s lessons in a classroom…its always hands on
Where is the solid ground for me to stand on?
How can I learn from the mistakes I make when all I can make is mistakes.
What did I do to deserve this fate?
I’m a poor man playing in a game of high stakes
I don’t want to settle
With regret I don’t want to meddle.
I’m tired of telling myself get better it will…
One day…
Dreams will be fulfilled
Goals will be accomplished
Happiness achieved
My purpose perceived
I don’t want to feel anymore pain
I don’t want to be hurt again and again and again
And If I’m living the consequences….whose actions are to be blamed
See I’ve built my walls too high for anyone to break down or climb over
But in the process I’ve trapped myself in….possibly alone forever.
But I tell myself that it will make me stronger…c’mon kid you know you are
You know you will get there though its very very far
While telling myself that I need to live life to the fullest
I’ve realized that right now I am reborn.
2 comments:
nice work, j-kwest!
good work johnny, it's about time u did something like this!! i'll be sending some new readers your way if u don't mind sharing...... ;) let me know.....
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